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02 January 2004 @ 08:08 am
Happy Fucking New Year  
'I'm very hurt about what you told me' 'If your response is to drop my journal...' 'This all ends right now' 'I'm upset, this is bullshit'

-the redhead-: yeah fine whatever. I just shouldn't bother to ever tell u how I feel about fucking anything. Because in the end, if it happens to make u upset then it's just bullshit. That's the only thing that matters, eh?
-the redhead-: Doesn't even matter that I spent 2 fucking hours saying that I knew I was wrong, that I knew it was illegitimate, and that I had tried to just deal with the problem without having a big fucking thing about it either
-the redhead-: the only thing that fucking matters is that you didn't like the solutiotion
-the redhead-: because you didn't like the solution even me admitting that what I was feeling was wrong and stupid wans't good enough
-the redhead-: and very very funny that you were messageing me saying what you did above, but that I wake up t find you doing so, scall you while you are *still* ding so, and you are suddenly 'in a meeting', even tho you are messaging me at the same time.
-the redhead-: so you go right ahead and punish me for being honest with you Chris. And you punish me for admitting for 2 fucking hours that I knew I was wrong and I didn't want to feel that way. You go ahead and ounish me for telling the truth. That'll learn me.
-the redhead-: Just another lesson in honesty and trust. Obviously something I should really know better about. Thanks for starting my New Years out on a proper note.

So I put this here for my own reasons. So that I never *ever* forget this important lesson. So that I *always* remember that being honest and telling people the truth is never the thing to do, even if they tell you over and over that's what they want. Because it might possibly make them upset. Even if at the same time you tell them you *know* it's wrong, you admit that up front and are taking steps to deal with it. Even if they *argue* with you about you coming to them openly, honestly and acknowledging that you are wrong. Because when it's all said and done they will tell you to fuck off and end it.

Great conversation to wake to on the second day of the new year, huh?

*bap bap bap!!!*

-the redhead-
... who seems to vaguely remembers that feelings really aren't 'right' or 'wrong' at any rate - they just are...
Paladinpaladin3 on January 2nd, 2004 08:58 am (UTC)
it sounds like a friend has really let you down and for that I'm very sorry...

take care