Of course I *deserve* to be yelled at, punished, and thrown out of your life because I had the temerity to have feelings, to be honest and open with you, and to admit that it wasn't right or legitimate from the beginning, and to try to deal with the problem without causing a big scene. For trying to be proactive about something. For being stupid enough to tell you, instead of just sucking it up and making sure that your life is all happy and perfect. For spending 2 hours arguing with you trying to admit, to convince *you* I knew that I was wrong somehow and that I didn't want to feel that way and that I was trying to fix it. For *believing* all of the times you told me you wanted to know what I thought and felt.
You are completely wrong, completely out of line, being completely unreasonable. You wonder why I don't trust anyone? This is exactly why - becuase if I am they will just use it as a weapon to punish me in the end.
Thanks for the lesson about honesty, trust, and trying to admit when one is wrong. I'll make sure and remeber this one forever.