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25 February 2003 @ 07:47 am
Protective reactions  

Waste of time

I heard those words yesterday.

I heard those words yesterday in the context of a conversation - they weren't said to me or about me per se, but following only 1 step of logic they could apply.

I heard those words. And spooked.

The full-on Thoroughbred snorty, irrational, instantaneously-sideways-thru-space kind of spook. Pure, blind reation.

For that fraction of a second nothing other than the instinct to protect myself existed.

In that instant I would have dropped it all and walked away. No explanations, no discussion, no reasoning, just cut it off and not looked back.

I didn't, which I hope will not come back to bite me on the ass later.

I've been shown (*bap!* *bap!* *bap!*) lately that I'm a waste of time and not worth the effort. It's not a pleasant feeling. I can do without it. I shouldn't have to deal with crap like that.

I think that walking away from situations and people which display such an attitude is a good thing generally. No need to put real time and effort into something that others view at *best* casually. The reaction just needs to be a bit more... conscious.

As I wanted to say to BritBoy after his so called 'apology' 'Your words are very pretty, but basically meaningless. Following the forms without meaning it may make you feel better about yourself, but in the end they are *just* words. PROVE IT.'

-the redhead-

The proof is in the pudding, as they say.
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Musings from the CZ unitcz_unit on February 25th, 2003 08:21 am (UTC)
Mmmm.... Crosses a line here as well, but in a different way.

Imagine someone who takes from you and doesn't give. Who lies, and doesn't care. Who you invest time, love, energy, spirit, and in return leads you down a primrose path straight to hell.

Reflexive? Yep.
CZ
-the redhead-theredhead on February 25th, 2003 08:34 am (UTC)
Those kind of people truly are a waste of time.

I suppose they could make an occasionally entertaining sex toy, but seriously aren't worth an effort.

I used to 'do all the work' to try to have relationships with people like that. *shrug* Stupid me.

I think I'm smarter now. Better to be alone than allow people to take advantage, I think.

-the redhead-
Liquid Tension Movementperspicuity on February 25th, 2003 09:52 am (UTC)
arrrrghhhhhhhhh! yow.

i hate that! these "selfish take people", they love the spotlight,
and move on when you can't provide MORE MORE MORE.

beware the sound of their feeding "ME! ME! ME!"

i've dated more than a few. makes single look real good. :/
still, i keep trying. the rewards are worth the trials, i hope.

-the redhead-theredhead on February 25th, 2003 12:09 pm (UTC)
Reflexive??

-the redhead-