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25 February 2005 @ 07:36 am
The cold and snow are appropriate today  
Well, it's over. Not necessarily something I wanted to deal with after 2 hours of sleep and being awake for all of 15 minutes, but not my choice. Not the result I wanted at all. Maybe it's good that I really wasn't awake or coherent, as perhaps it hurt les. At least at the moment...

Silly me, I had been up most of the night trying to figure out how my thinking was wrong and what I could do differently. Better. How to reduce my needs and desires. How to be happy with fitting into a very small box, only to be taken out on occasion. How to take pressure away and make things more even. Heh... Wasted effort, it seems.

Funny how people want something, but really can't make room for it in the end. But you know, I cannot reconcile other people's lives, no matter how much I'd like to help. Somehow I'm still left with the feeling that it's my fault becuase I was not good enough somehow. I didn't try hard enough. I wasn't flexible enough. That the options I could come up with, which seemed the best fit for the situation at hand, weren't good enough. I failed. *sigh*

Oh well, guess that in the end I wasn't what was wanted. or what fit, or was convenient or whatever. So at 7:30 am, alone and in a city far from home, I was dumped. Ah well, I suppose I should chalk it up to another one of those pricey learning experiences. Stuck here for another day, as it would cost even more to get home tomorrow. Not to mention the stupid hotel will charge me for the room anyway, becuase that's 'their policy' *sigh* At least they brought me clean towels...

So, I put on my pretty face and my professonal attire and head off for another 9 hours of being pleasant and helpful and dealing with our customers.


-the redhead-
prettypammieprettypammie on February 25th, 2005 04:41 pm (UTC)
Horses are better...you can discipline them for dumping you...
Rats, I'm not there this week or I'd say let's do lunch or something. Are you going back today/this weekend?

-the redhead-theredhead on February 25th, 2005 05:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you ma'am - I really appreciate your kind thoughts, esp. when I'm so far from home and alone.

Yeah, I think sometimes horses *are* better *nod* I'm trying to figure out whether to try to get home tonorrow or stay until Sunday, but either way I think we miss each other which is unfortunate.

Have a great weekend and please give Con an extra pat for me.

-the redhead-
Peter 'Happy' Thomashappypete on February 26th, 2005 07:29 am (UTC)
re: the gentleman in question...
There's a saying I learned at one point: "Once is an incident; twice is a trend."

AFAICT, this makes the "twice" since I've known him...and his actions really didn't make a lot of sense to me either time.

Must speak to him about it some time--except he always takes that damned patronizing tone in conversations--I honestly think he thinks he's being gracious in granting me the favor of his opinions.