Done trying to roll the boulder up the mountain.
I'm going to stick to things I can control. Things that I can touch and control without having to depend on... the vagaries of the universe (or other people). It's just not worth the disappointment anymore.
As for the other things... they would be nice but I'm not going to invest effort (mental, emotional, or otherwise) in them. It's the magic wand or nothing.
I'm done with the *bapping*
...taking my big-assed headache out for some dinner...